“how is it doing porn?”
laroo Says:
January 30, 2009 at 10:20 pm eSequoia, How is it doing porn? Is it pretty much mechanical or do you get into it? Like that guy on the cover kinda creeps me out. What if the guy totally creeps you out. How do you handle that? I’ve always been curious about that.
Thanks Laroo for the interesting question, I can honestly say that I’ve never been asked that before and now I’m going to dedicate a blog post to your interesting question!
How is it doing porn? Mainstream porn is pretty mechanical, (this is from the perspective of someone who only performed in “gonzo” scenes). Of course its not with your first couple scenes because you’re just getting into it and everything is a new experience. Especially since I had never modeled before porn was exciting because for the first time I was told I looked beautiful in front of a camera, which I had never been told before. So learning the poses, the facial expressions to make, having a makeup artist work her magic on you etc etc for me was an appealing process in and of itself. The stills of a scene were my favorite to do. I feel as if stills are the perfection of a moment, whether the moment is wrapping your tongue around a stranger’s cock or the expression of ecstasy as it slides inside of you.
I didn’t get into the sex per se, but I got into the role of playing the slutty chick that was into the sex. Does that make any sense?
This is the aspect of stripping that I love, playing the role of the seductress and really luring the man in. In stripping I was never really into the guy that I was working, sure there were guys I preferred over others, but I wasn’t going to spend time with them for free.
This is related to mainstream porn because you’re seducing the camera, not the male talent. The male talent is just a prop in porn, mainstream doesn’t really allow for or encourage connections between performers and to be honest I’m not really sure if it would be a good idea if they did.
The guy on the cover looks creepy, but trust me he wasn’t. He was Cuban, his English wasn’t that good and it was his first scene as well. He asked me if I liked him and that if I told him that I had a crush on him it would make the scene go easier for him. I told him it was just a job for me and that I was looking forward to the check at the end and that was it. He had trouble performing the entire time and the scene took all day to film.
There wasn’t any guys that creeped me out, men don’t really have that effect on me anymore. If they’re trying to be creepy or leering or gross its more like annoyance than a fear based emotion that comes up.
There was one guy that I did walk out on a scene though, it was a P.O.V. scene which means the guy who is holding the camera is also the talent thereby creating the “point of view”. I didn’t have a good feeling about him and I wanted to use a condom and he kept insisting that we go bareback. I refused and packed my shit up and called my boyfriend to come pick me up. My agent had a shit fit of course because A. my boyfriend came to a scene and B. I left in the middle of said scene.
That was my last performance in mainstream porn. I got sick of feeling like such a commodity and sick of the context of the story lines in the scenes.
If anyone took notice to when you google my name a P.O.V. scene comes up which is clearly not me, this scene was filmed by the same company that I walked out on. They’re using my name for another girl. Coincidence? Nah.
In conclusion I do realize I sound a bit “goldiggerish” in this post, but my opinions here are relate to my feelings about performing in roles that aren’t necessarily me. Roles that require work to be in. Whereas the work I did in Australia I was basically being paid to be myself which is sexual and open and free and the work that I did over there reflects this beautifully. There is a part of me that believes sex work as spirituality as well, but this is for another post entirely…
Until next time…
January 30, 2009 at 11:46 pm
great post. Love your objective honesty. Would love to hear more of your spiritual views
January 31, 2009 at 12:14 pm
Wow thanks Sequoia, I don’t find you at all “goldiggerish”. Rather a survivor and sure of herself. You do what you need to do and do what is in your best interest. That is smart.
I love your sense of freedom and how you use your sexuality in such a positive way. Thanks for sharing your experiences, and being so forthcoming. (like there’s any other way, huh?)
Hugs, Laroo
February 1, 2009 at 7:57 pm
Thanks Sequoia that was interesting, especially the things you enjoyed about mainstream porn, something you don’t ever hear, I like pics of people semi clothed and nude and even tho their posed they all look beautiful. If your agent got upset because you wouldn’t do a job without a condom?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is definitely the time to quit!
Be interesting to read your thoughts on the spirituality of sex work if you’d like to write them.
February 2, 2009 at 6:38 pm
I love what you said about what comes up being an annoyance based emotion and not fear. I see men as less and less “creepy” now as well.
February 2, 2009 at 6:39 pm
I also love that you show us the guy in the porn was insecure and awkward and also doing a job for money. He actually needed reassurance from you. Very interesting.
February 3, 2009 at 6:50 am
This is the best real description of doing porn I’ve ever read, or maybe the only one. But what’s it like doing non mainstream porn?
February 6, 2009 at 7:18 pm
Come back Sequoia!!!
You are missed.